If you've been reading this blog over the last few months, you may have discerned that my little world has been changing and I haven't known how to respond to all of it . . . and that in some ways it isn't changing fast enough and I get impatient. Isn't that like a woman? I'm whining about the changes and whining about the lack of changes. (Oooops. Didn't mean to be so hard on our sex. Maybe it's just like a human!)
This week I did some praying about all that . . . uh . . . to be honest, those prayers sounded a whole lot like questioning, complaining, and whining.
The Lord is so incredibly gracious. Instead of becoming irritated with all my weakness, He assured me that He loves it when I spend time with Him, even when I'm asking questions.
He did tell me that He chuckles at all my emotion, lists of requests, and questions. In fact, He reminded me of how my teenage daughter has lists for me--the things she needs me to buy and do. He said I'm like her. Handing Him a list as if He didn't already know what I need and plan to take care of it.
Oh, brother. A teenager again at 40! :o)
Part of my questions this week included writing. (When will I ever just embrace the writing journey He's placed me on and quit fussing about it?)
He did a very cool thing on Thursday night. He not only affirmed that He's making some changes in my life (whew, that's a relief. I wondered what was going on), but also reaffirmed my choice to continue to pursue further publication.
And He gave me a present.
I've long wished for an AlphaSmart, a nifty little word processing device that's durable enough to throw in a backpack and take with me to baseball practice, gymnastics meets . . .
So . . . on Thursday He gave me one. Just like that. Someone sent it anonymously, saying God told them to. Isn't that cool?? This weekend I delighted in pounding away on my keyboard while I waited for the children to finish their activities, then I just came home, plugged that little treasure into my hard drive, and poured my words into my home computer. Hallelujah!
Praising Him tonight and basking in the peace of His attention and reassurance.
Sunday, April 23, 2006
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Yahhhhooooooo!
So cool to hear.
God is so great, so sweet, so attentive, isn't He?
You know, God has His ways to help us along the journey. I really have a hard time with patience. There so many changes in my life going on, and I don't know if I should laugh or cry. Thank you for your encouragement.
How awesome He is! Doens't it always surprise us when He "knows what we have need of even before we ask"? I know its sad but I'm always a bit taken aback when I get a surpise from Him like that...when will I ever learn?? :) Now go get em, sister!
I just love it when He does things like that! Thanks for sharing.
That sounds cool! Is an AlphaSmart just like a little portable typewriter and screen then - that you can download to Microsoft Word on your computer?
I think I might need one of those too!
How funny, I think you are right - to God we 30 and 40 somethings still probably are like "teenagers" sometimes even PRETEENS...LOL!!!
I am excited about the present and affirmation that God gave you! He does know and HE does treasure you!
May you find peace as you journey through the transitions...and may you find joy on the other side :)
how awesome is that? i wish they'd find my address so God could tell them to send me one, too! lol
and don't worry about the teenager stage again at 40...i think it's natural! my parents (mom especially...yes radical one haha) are going through their teenage years again! and i think it happens again at 80-something - my great-grandmother was a teenager at heart before she went to be with the Lord. so, don't worry too much - just enjoy it! :-)
Our Father knows how to give good gifts to His children!
hey girl! great post. i love your open and honest heart in your writings. i used to worry about my "lists" or my complaining, but then i realized that i might as well go ahead and say it to Him, because after all, He already knows my heart.
thanks for your thoughts and prayers for us.
be blessed!
lisa
wow! *eyes wide open in amazement at the way God works*
Sis Paula, once again you have blessed my heart thru this post. =)
that's SO awesome Paula!!! I love that God did this for you! I also think it's really cool that it happened on the same day as my answered prayer! You happy... makes me happy!
o man, don't you love anonymous presants from God. they are the best. makes me want to keep my ears more open to what He may want me to give anonymously from Him to someone in need of encouragement! glad u are blessed by Him!
Wow. That is awesome! I understand the trials of seeking publication. So much anxiety to just give up to God. As I tell myself often, "His timing is the best!"
How encouraging! The Lord sends us gifts all wrapped up with His love--just when we need it, too. I'd take this show of affection as a firm nudge to keep writing.:-)
love ya bunches,
Vicki
What an incredible blessing and creative confirmation in your life! I believe that you just reaped the books you sowed into my life! I'm so excited for you.
wow!
blessings on your writing :)
and thank God for obedient people too. How generous of the anon. giver!
~BIG SMILE~ God is so staggeringly gracious! I love my little Alphasmart ---may you bless many by the pounding of those keys! ~warm smile~
Ann V.
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